my memory

I've added a second layer! Gotta keep this momentum going or else I'll never finish a painting lol~ The funny inspiration for layering came from... a MAKEUP tutorial! HA! I guess I really am a late bloomer. Even though I have a degree with this stuff and a sister who adores make up I never got the fundamentals of color down. The depression might have skewed all the learning I accumulated over those years as well. I really feel information and processing is linked to emotions, so if I were depressed the entire time I was in college, my best recollection would occur when I were in the same emotional state. That is my guess. When I find out more information to solidify my case, I'll come back to this post. And since I am not depressed anymore--I've learned methods of coping and acceptance, I cannot revert to those same emotions when I had learned that knowledge. I think it also goes with my memories with practically everyone I've met. I have a pretty lousy long-term memory. It might be something with my physical brain, its chemistry or some emotional-mental block that doesn't allow me to access... repressed memories? I don't know! But, E can take me somewhere he's taken me when we first met and I'd consider it all new! Kind of like 50 first dates, but not that extreme >_> One day, I'll figure out why. If not... I'm ok with getting excited about something I did years ago, but thinking it's the first time all the time. Kind of a romantic view of the world, I guess. <3